Sign

My scars aren't all visible,
They go deeper in my soul,
Shoving them is impossible,
Understanding them even more.

I feel like I am thousands of years old,
Tired and tortured through ages,
Memories faded and bold,
Not showing all my spirits stages.

Later on I am feeling broken,
Knowing that some things aren't right,
Things are for me going wrong,
Again I cannot sleep at night.

Feeling more lonely every morning,
Waking up older and heavier,
Burden is what is my knowing,
And it doesn't get easier.

I am the possession of me,
I am my rightful owner,
I am the of me,
Still I don't know what I am.

Written by: Heavy

...sane?

Inflict the pain directly into my heart,
Again and again and don't stop,
Let it wound me and kill me for good,
I had no eyes when I should.

Damage me! Damage me! Rip me apart,
When you don't see my loyal heart,
Let my eyes show you the horror inside,
Let you be struck by that what you will find!

Cold-blooded, heartless and emotionless are you!
Why did I let myself to be seduced...fool!
Paying the price and nothing more to say,
Remember me...when I was still sane.

Written by: Heavy

Jester's Rage

Once my work is all done,
I go back to my chamber,
I dwell there with darkest one,
No one respects my labor!

My look is only deceiving,
The look is only a mask,
Illusion is what they are receiving,
It hurts to be remembered last.

Happy and funny is only an act,
My future I cannot see,
Inside I am shreaded apart,
No one cares because it is me.

Respect is the word I don't know,
Sadness is the feeling that I feel,
Happy is the word I only show,
Dead is what's inside of me.

Again and again I spin around,
Confused but awoken,
Yet to discover where I belong,
Answer is: Alone and broken!

Written by: Heavy

Continuous

Nervous...helpless...alone...
The words that describe my soul,
Empty inside, sad outside,
My mind has gone for a punishing ride.

Torturing myself with feeling,
Letting it start the bleeding,
Bleeding from an old wound,
Wound that isn't yet healed.

One more time I will smile,
Easier to say than to try,
Mixed feelings got through to me,
Sheared me apart completely.

Once full of life and love,
Now tortured and without my dove,
Oh I remember it...so beautiful,
Pure...happy...indescribable.

Good times are gone...long passed,
Dream of life has collapsed,
Living in horror and decadence,
Waiting to wake up from this horrible place.

Written by: Heavy

Et cetera

Years have passed and nothing has changed,
I am still alone and waiting for a way,
My mind has developed, became deranged,
Everyone is gone only I am supposed to stay.

Walking on a lone man's highway,
Feeling nothing, questioning everything,
Then I realize this is not my way,
This is not my doomful ending.

I stop, look up and begin to wonder,
Why do I feel so empty inside,
Emotions exploding like a thunder,
My happiness and future is denied.

Once the same, hollow and insane,
My mind passing out, losing breath,
Answers reaching deep in my brain,
Allowing me to face my death.

Written by: Heavy

Revelation of I

Passing through the mirror room,
Seeing reflections staring at me,
Twisted like they are on the loom.
Then I realize what I see,

Future, present and the past,
Each of them showing a way,
When I reach them at last,
Their images start to fade.

Faded, gone, left my soul,
My mind burns and so does my eyes,
I can feel I am all alone,
Everything I see is a disguise.

One mirror far away,
Shines bright like a star,
It is showing me the way,
Through the dark of the night.

The one and only thing I see,
Is that what kept me alive,
It is the image of me,
Showing me the right path.

Woken up still afraid,
My heart beats like mad,
It doesn't feel like being dead,
When you still have dreams like that.

Written by: Heavy