Nervous...helpless...alone...
The words that describe my soul,
Empty inside, sad outside,
My mind has gone for a punishing ride.
Torturing myself with feeling,
Letting it start the bleeding,
Bleeding from an old wound,
Wound that isn't yet healed.
One more time I will smile,
Easier to say than to try,
Mixed feelings got through to me,
Sheared me apart completely.
Once full of life and love,
Now tortured and without my dove,
Oh I remember it...so beautiful,
Pure...happy...indescribable.
Good times are gone...long passed,
Dream of life has collapsed,
Living in horror and decadence,
Waiting to wake up from this horrible place.
Written by: Heavy